I consider myself a very sexual person, but I've only been with one person and, to say the least, he was disappointing. I've felt very strong attractions to women, too, but I'm scared to pursue those desires. I grew up with a homophobic and cruel father and while I know that me sleeping with another woman wouldn't be wrong, I still have this weird nagging feeling that I'm doing something wrong by thinking about it. I'm also terrified that I'd be bad at it.
What is more important to you? Living up to the expectations and criticisms of someone whose opinion you know is wrong, or being truly happy in your life and expressing yourself as you are? At some point we have to stop being subservient to our parents’ world view and trusting in our own needs as adults. As for being bad at it, women are very understanding creatures. So I’m sure anyone who you got involved with that knew it was new for you would help to guide you. You already know what you like on yourself so it’s easy to keep that in mind when you’re pleasuring another person.